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Fuck Me. [14 Jun 2006|09:18pm] i'm starting a new one. bye <3

Fuck Me. anyone who still uses this shit .. [14 Jun 2006|09:17pm] forget most of that last entry.

2 Dead _ Fuck Me. [14 Apr 2006|09:14pm] to whom this may concern, how funny that its really me i'm talking to. i havent updated since me and jess became officially over over. it feels so different without her. in a detailed account, i'm going to try and cover the last 5 months of my life. things havent been wrong that long, but the first 2 are just to soften the subject so i can talk about it more. i'll start with thanksgiving. me and ed went to jess's house to eat with her family. it was a cute little dinner. i felt really in love that day. before now, i could never admit when i got jealous about something involving her, because i always thought there was something wrong with my feeling that way. i actually got jealous that ed spent the entire day sleeping on her couch. why wasnt i ever allowed to do that. i did spend the night there one time. but lets not talk about that. that's the last happy memory i can remember. but i never really slept that night. she just made me feel so awake. i didnt need dreams because there was always one in my arms. the best way to kill a dream is to do it yourself. the next memory i have is sex in the back of her moms car. i'm not completely sure that happened before or after thanksgiving. but its strong memory. i had a good time. then came death. i'm not sure what we were arguing about, or what went wrong, but me and jess didnt stop arguing for 4 days about seemingly nothing. i went to church with her and everybody inside the church all turned to look at me like i was sinner. fuck christian kids, but it was the aura of the room that really got me. i was the lowest person in the world to all of them. its funny how god teaches you to love your fellow man, but to burn all the witches. but i was just under a spell. i'd been feeling myself drifting away from people for a really long time. my mental state has seriously gone down hill since then. and jess was the one person i was really close to. for christmas i bought her a 120 dollar ring from one of the places in the mall. i'd try to remember the name, but it doesnt matter if i do or not. they all look the same. i brought it to build-a-bear to give her while she was working. it was a cute little heart shaped sapphire. pink. somehow, i'd magically gotten the exact ring size she needed without ever asking her for it or telling the woman behind the counter. it was like there were angels there guiding everything in a direction. i went up to build-a-bear thinking of how great it would be if i proposed to her in front of all those little kiddies and their mothers. i didnt, but i wanted to. and that was the last thought i had. a week later, we were over for good. my mistake. thats all i've ever been able to make out of anything. a mistake. but this one was beautiful. and i'm still not over it. i would still do anything for that girl. heres the clincher. after that morning its like everything from everyone became a mindgame. ed and buker started dicking me around about our friendships. jess was all telling me she didnt think she'd ever get over me, and then 2 weeks later put my boys dick her mouth and forgot all the feelings she's ever had for me. the next day tells me she cant fool around with anyone because she's thinking of me. and then 2 weeks later tells me that the day before she said that, she was in bed with gary. mind you, i'm still totally wrapped around this girl. normally i'd have been like fuck it. she's not worth it. but she was worth everything to me a month earlier. maybe i'm just stubborn. but it doesnt end there. i woke up one morning in late january or early february and it was like i'd been having a mental breakdown for weeks and i was right in the middle of it. but it came out of nowhere, so needless to say, i was freaking the fuck out. everyone kept trying to snap me out of it, but it seemed more like they were just trying to push me further under. that week wound me up in a psychiatric hospital for paranoia and bipolar depressiveness. while i was there, i almost smothered myself twice. i still dont know why. it was the worst feeling i've ever felt. and it pushed me, of all people, to such an act. if you know me, you know thats not me. where the fuck did i go. blah blah blah. inside the hospital i met this girl named cara, she's a good kid. we planned on running off to some zen colony in west virginia. we both knew it wasnt going to happen, but it would have been pretty sweet. ed and shane moved to maryland. 2 weeks later i came home medicated and supposed to be feeling better. i was fucking miserable. i've spent almost everyday since then hunting out the people that i can call friends. while i was in there i found out i had a false sense of pretty much every bond i have. theres a couple i'd never question, but i did anyway. even more so, since i came back, jess has been toying with my fucking head, whether shes doing it on purpose or trying to make me feel better about still being in love with her. she's saying friends forever, best friends forever and things like that. so i asked her if i could take her out for her birthday. she said ok. we hung up on a good note, and then she didnt call me for the rest of the week. there was one day when she'd actually answer the phone for me. it wasnt a happy day. we were supposed to hang out, and she kept postponing my coming over. around 8 o clock i call her and she answers all like "Hi FRED! Gary's here, wanna talk to him?" of course i did. that kids my nigga. but talking to him, i found myself getting really jealous. i couldnt hang out with her, but he could just come over no questions asked and flirt with her. with gary there, she had 3 friends over. and i wasnt one of them after being told that we could hangout. i felt like she only answered the phone to rub in that everyone else was there and i wasnt. so i told her i got jealous about the gary thing. and she assured me, it was nothing. i let it pass over, because there was nothing else i could do about it. i love her to death. i dont care if she wants to hurt me. if its making her happy whatever. so i go to maryland to visit ed and shane. ed doesnt even spend time with me during the week, and shane just kind of bossed me around everywhere. they say they want me to move down there, but what person in their right mind would walk into something thats just gonna make him go crazier. and they'll probably get pissed when i tell them i'm not going to, but its for the sake of the last few pieces of sanity i have left. baltimore is a nice city however. i called my dad and my dad decided he was gonna spend 230 some odd dollars on train tickets instead of buying gas for half way to maryland. the idiocy of my roots. at least i know they give a shit. my biggest problem as of now falls somewhere between getting used to not being with jess and finding a group of friends i belong in. i dont believe that anyone who was my friend before is my friend now. i think my whole breakdown thing kind of turned them all away. great friends, huh? i've never felt so alone in my life.

2 Dead _ Fuck Me. ya [26 Jan 2006|03:22pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | SinaiBeach[Neccesary Bloodshed] ] you can want something and still hate it more than anything. the only reason it was easy is that i was convinced shed take forever to let go. thought lies. i'm happy for her, but that doesnt mean i'm happy. and its not just that. i'm going fucking crazy. its like i'm opening into a grand canyon. i'm becoming a gap in the ground i walk over and see myself falling in. i'm dying as my eyes dry out. when it rains. i tear here. what good is doing anything without reason. you wont lose weight or change anything. it just makes you hate everything. go numb. feel nothing. welcome to rock bottom. where nothing makes more sense. or any less. i'm confused by everything. i'm a prince turned into a frog. theres witches singing curses in my ears. demons hiding in my eyes. i've never been more scared of anything in my life. and i dont know what these spells are chasing me from. its kind of like this week has been programmed into my head. a chance to choose. universal deja vu. i'm seeing things before they happen and fucking them all over the galaxy. i'm falling apart. to pieces. to ash. i dont want to give up or give in. but is anything worth sitting in the middle? some - 1 - come. dig me from my grave.

2 Dead _ Fuck Me. thanksgiving. [24 Nov 2005|10:32am] [ mood | discontent ] [ music | SomeGirls- heaven street ] what am i thankful for. Jessica Marie Pavao. that i'm not dead. an understaffed McDonalds. and my paycheck. for the first holiday ever i have something to give meaning to the holiday other than the 4 feasts of holiday spirit my family shines upon me every year. 1. the morning boring. 2. the afternoon bitch riot. 3. the miserable meal. 4. the pathetic afterdinner promise to not ruin the next holiday. i am waiting for stage 2 so i can just eat and go to fucking sleep. i hope i can go to jess's tonight after though. i need company other than the people who've made family holidays mean nothing to me. and who better than the only person who means anything.

Fuck Me. [11 Sep 2005|12:12pm] AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

3 Dead _ Fuck Me. [08 Sep 2005|03:57pm] i am fucking bored as shit. fuck school. and fuck not going to it. i wish i had a reason to wake up every morning.

3 Dead _ Fuck Me. [05 Sep 2005|12:24pm] i have the fucking flu or some shit. and jess wont fucking talk to me. :(

4 Dead _ Fuck Me. Breaking News. [25 Aug 2005|08:23pm] its always the things that you never want to end that end first. and feel the worst. together we built something so beautiful. one day we're in love and talking about life together, the next day the entire structure comes crumbling down. it doesnt realy matter whos to blame. 2 people cant carry a mountain on their shoulders. a shake of an arm to tear down everest. you say we'll never speak again. but we'll find our way through the wreckage before i burn it down. before i burn you away.

Fuck Me. me [21 Aug 2005|10:29pm] I have kissed someone of the same sex on the lips. I used to or do see a therapist. I'm the youngest child. I am drawn to things associated with sadness. I have gauged ears. I wear black eyeliner every day. I am extremely influenced by kindness. I love to write. I can't live without lipgloss/chapstick. I'm probably emotionally scarred. I lived in Tahoe. I spend money I have. I'll be in college for over 4 years. I love designer handbags. I've had a concussion before. I'm not good with confrontation. I loved the Backstreet Boys. I have more than a couple horrible memories. I'm addicted to Degrassi. I've tried writing poetry before and failed. My first kiss was unexpected. I'm not a fan of rap. I love taking pictures. I don't like girls who are fake. I can be mean when I want to. I love AFI. I have kissed someone who's name starts with an "M". I have way too many pairs of shoes. I was into Hot Wheels as a child. I dress how I feel that day. My room is painted a color other than white. I cry very easily. I'm always late. I barely ever study for tests. My birthday is my favorite holiday. I have too many clothes for my closet/dresser. I am a morning person. I wish I was smarter. I believe that it is wrong to be gay. I think that its perfectly ok to be gay.(its just really fucking gross. lesbians are an exception.) No one REALLY knows me. I don't have many bad hair days. I sometimes fight with my parents. I am passionate about my interests. I have had the chicken pox. I'm a hopeless romantic. I feel empty sometimes. I am/was most likely clinically depressed at a point in my life. I am no longer depressed. I am very outgoing. Christmas is my favorite holiday. I can be very insecure. I've been told I'm very softspoken. I'm a virgin. I love the color yellow. I like girls that play the guitar/bass. I state the obvious. I'm a happy person. I have absolutely no self-confidence. I've contemplated suicide. I hate cleaning my room. I tend to get jealous. I like to play video games. I love John Mayer. I get more upset when I see an animal hurt than a person. I'm a vegetarian or a vegan. I have thought a teacher was cute before. I am too forgiving. I bite my nails sometimes. I have a good sense of direction. I've never had a boyfriend/girlfriend before. I've played a musical instrument for over 5 years. kinda. I can function perfectly well without a girlfriend/boyfriend. I love kisses on the forehead. I love the color blue. I don't sew. I am not addicted to drugs. I wear contacts. I hate it when people say they hate Bush because he is a moron. I hate Bush. i personally enjoy anything that gives foliage to the punani area. but not bumbling political corruptors. I don't give a crap. I don't take criticism well. Conformity is stupid. Chris Carrabba is one of the sexiest men alive. So is Conor from Bright Eyes. I love my family. I don't mind getting shots. especially buttershots, jager, and seagrams V.0. I am a perfectionist when it comes to certain things. I always wanted to learn to play the drums. I play the guitar/bass. I'm probably going to/already have had/will soon have premarital sex, again. I have had mono. I am very religious. I still act like a little kid. I am ridiculously indecisive. I believe in a higher power or some form of an afterlife. I love music. I'm in love. I have problems letting go of people. Jesse Lacey writes some of the most amazing lyrics ever. I don't really like ice cream. I have freckles. My birthday is in December. Brody Dalle is pretty. I like older girls. I've gotten in numerous fights, and have won all of them. I get bored very easily. My parents arent together. I don't even know what my natural hair color is anymore. I get really anxious in big crowds of unfamiliar people. I love Ryan Cabrera I have a girlfriend I couldnt live without. I miss the person that means the most to me.(see above line) I have braces. My family doesn`t accept me for who I am. I have a really boring cell phone.

4 Dead _ Fuck Me. [16 Aug 2005|03:58pm] i need a job.

5 Dead _ Fuck Me. the longest day of the year. [11 Aug 2005|03:18pm] [ mood | frustrated ] [ music | theAgonyScene-ScapeGoat ] today is being insanely gay. gay to the max. get me out of this fucking house.

2 Dead _ Fuck Me. SPACE INVASION. [10 Aug 2005|02:13am] i got abducted by aliens. they beat me up and then probed my butt. i wuz begging for mercy, but i dont think they understood me anyway. if only i spoke spanish. ♥

Fuck Me. EVACUATE: [05 Aug 2005|12:17am] we got a STAGE 5 CLiNGER

Fuck Me. [02 Aug 2005|12:12pm] as of 2 days ago me and daizy decided me daizy and markus are goinmg to try and make a band. again. fuckin', maybe this is just another senseless effort thats going to go nowhere, but i dont give a fuck. its worth a shot. we need a drummer and a lead guitarist. someone hook it up.

1 Dead _ Fuck Me. [01 Aug 2005|06:35am] i broke the bowl. i deserve to be crucified for my sacrilege. i was drunk though. and there were cops. i just threw it to hide it. thats all. i'm a blasphemer.

3 Dead _ Fuck Me. ITS FUCKING HOT AS BALLS. [27 Jul 2005|02:02pm] [ mood | hot ] [ music | EveryTimeIDie:She's My Rushmore ] 98º eat my dick.

3 Dead _ Fuck Me. She Broke Like Glass [25 Jul 2005|12:29pm] Methamphetamine is a stimulant, a potent member of the phetamine family. These drugs speed up your body and your brain. Methamphetamine affects your nervous system in a serious way. This drug was used widely in the 1950's to help keep truckers awake, college students more alert, and athletes on the cutting edge. That was before doctors found out how dangerous the drug was. Street or slang names for methamphetamine include speed, meth, chalk, ice, crystal, glass and crank. Methamphetamine comes in many forms; pills, powder, or as clear chunky crystals (ice) The crystals are another form of methamphetamine that contains a substance called hydrochloride. Methamphetamine is usually manufactured in illegal laboratories. When DEA chemists take a close look at what's in the seized methamphetamine, they see bacteria and other germs that can make the user really sick. Some chemists say that "meth" produced in illegal labs is "crawling with bugs." These labs also harm the environment because many toxic chemicals are used to make methamphetamine. Methamphetamine can be swallowed, snorted, huffed, injected, or smoked. The legal use of Methamphetamine is highly restricted. This means that a person needs a prescription from his or her doctor, and drug refills are not permitted without a doctor's permission. Prescription drugs are meant only for the person they are prescribed for, and should never be shared. A person could do time in jail and pay heavy fines if caught selling methamphetamine. That's a Federal Law. Methamphetamine: Mental and Physical Effects.. Angry, hostile, and anxious feelings. Violent behavior. Confusion. Mental illness that looks Like schizophrenia (paranoid feelings picking at your skin, hallucinations). The user can also be haunted by his or her thoughts. Increased physical activity. Loss of appetite, which can result in severe weight loss (anorexia). Inability to sleep. Increased heart and pulse rate. Permanent damage to the blood vessels in the brain, which can lead to strokes. Convulsions and body tremors. Chest pain and raised blood pressure, which could lead to a heart attack and then death. Irregular heartbeat. AIDS or hepatitis resulting from shared needles. Mental dependence. Tolerance and addiction to the drug. (Note: Please see Sky's Symptoms Area For More Info) The 1999 National Household Survey on Drug Abuse estimated that 9.4 million Americans tried methamphetamine in their lifetime. This figure shows a marked increase from the 1994 estimate of 3.8 million. The 1999 Monitoring the Future survey asked twelfth graders about the use of crystal methamphetamine and found that use has been rising since 1990, peaking in 1998 before leveling off in 1999. Currently, 4.8 percent of high school seniors used the drug in their lifetime (compared to 2.7 percent in 1990), and 1.9 percent used the drug within the past year (compared to 1.3 percent in 1990). Crystal methamphetamine use is associated with numerous serious physical problems. The drug can cause rapid heart rate, increased blood pressure, and damage to the small blood vessels in the brain--which can lead to stroke. Chronic use of the drug can result in inflammation of the heart lining. Overdoses can cause hyperthermia (elevated body temperature), convulsions, and death. Individuals who use crystal methamphetamine also may have episodes of violent behavior, paranoia, anxiety, confusion, and insomnia. The drug can produce psychotic symptoms that persist for months or years after an individual has stopped using the drug. Crystal methamphetamine use is associated with numerous serious physical problems. The drug can cause rapid heart rate, increased blood pressure, and damage to the small blood vessels in the brain--which can lead to stroke. Chronic use of the drug can result in inflammation of the heart lining. Overdoses can cause hyperthermia (elevated body temperature), convulsions, and death. Individuals who use crystal methamphetamine also may have episodes of violent behavior, paranoia, anxiety, confusion, and insomnia. The drug can produce psychotic symptoms that persist for months or years after an individual has stopped using the drug. The effects and dependence potential of meth are similar to that of amphetamine misuse, although as the stuff is a lot stronger, the dangers involved are greater with an increased chance of overdose. Overuse can bring on paranoia, short term memory loss, wild rages and mood swings as well as damage to your immune system. As far as we know, it is not physically addictive, although many have quickly developed a very strong psychological and damaging dependence for the drug. Overdosing can lead to severe convulsions followed by circulatory and respiratory collapse, coma and death. Some people have died after taking small doses.

Fuck Me. CAN WE BLAZE?¿ [25 Jul 2005|12:13pm] cannabis (spliff, marijuana, ganja, weed, hash, skunk, blow, puff, 'erb etc.) Cannabis is naturally occurring substance that can act as a relaxant and mild hallucinogenic. When smoked, the effects are usually felt fairly quickly with people feeling more relaxed, happy and generally laid back. Strong cannabis can also lead to pointless giggling, loss of inhibitions and an enhanced appreciation of music and colours. Marijuana has also been reported to ease the pain, nausea and vomiting in advanced stages of cancer, AIDS and other serious illnesses. Like most drugs, the effects of the drug can vary wildly from one person to another, with factors like where you are, who you're with and your general state of mind all influencing the experience. Most cannabis is pretty mild, although recent varieties such as skunk, northern lights and purple haze can have a very strong - and sometimes hallucinogenic - effect. Cannabis can be smoked with or without tobacco, filtered through water, cooled or inhaled using all manner of drug paraphernalia, or simply eaten. If eaten, it's hard to calculate when it will take effect - especially if you've wolfed down a Billy Bunter sized Vegeburger beforehand. The physical effects of too much dope can result in bloodshot eyes, a dry mouth and sloth-like reflexes and some people have reported feeling anxious and paranoid after a heavy session. Side effects: For many, smoking dope is as natural and everyday as a brew of hot tea, and they find the drug helps make their life a little less stressful without unduly affecting their judgement or abilities. For others it can have quite the opposite effect, turning ordinary folk into unbearable, spaced out, lazy hippies. A night of industrial strength spliffing can transform you into a giggling oaf who will burst into laughter at wholly unamusing incidents and find deep intellectual depth in the Spice Girls' lyrics. Your trousers and sofa will become riddled with burn marks from dropped spliffs, and you will have to face the regular dilemma of being hit with the munchies at 3am only to find that you were too out of it to get the shopping in. This can result in regular users turning into lazy gits whose crap diet turns their body into a most unattractive proposition. Health risks: Most of the health risks associated with cannabis are those linked with the tobacco it's usually smoked with. There have been suggestions that there is an extremely low risk of developing bronchitis or lung cancer from smoking cannabis resin by itself, although a $2 million study by the National Toxicology Program in the US "found absolutely no evidence" in these claims (see http://www.niehs.nih.gov/dirtob/bucher.htm for more info) The acute toxicity of cannabis and the cannabinoids is very low; no-one has ever died as a direct and immediate consequence of recreational or medical use. Official statistics record two deaths involving cannabis (and no other drug) in 1993, two in 1994 and one in 1995 but these were due to inhalation of vomit. Animal studies have shown a very large separation (by a factor of more than 10,000) between pharmacologically effective and lethal doses. Although it is widely accepted - even in most Government and legal circles - that the occasional use of cannabis is most certainly no more dangerous than socially accepted drugs like alcohol and tobacco, possession still remains an offence in most countries. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- FOR THOUSANDS OF YEARS, marijuana has been used to treat a wide variety of ailments. Until 1937, marijuana (Cannabis sativa L.) was legal in the United States for all purposes. Presently, federal law allows only seven Americans to use marijuana as a medicine. On March 17, 1999, the National Academy of Sciences’ Institute of Medicine (IOM) concluded that “there are some limited circumstances in which we recommend smoking marijuana for medical uses.” The IOM report, the result of two years of research that was funded by the White House drug policy office, analyzed all existing data on marijuana’s therapeutic uses. Please see http://www.mpp.org/science.html. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Medicinal Value Marijuana is one of the safest therapeutically active substances known. No one has ever died from an overdose, and it has a wide variety of therapeutic applications, including: • Relief from nausea and appetite loss; • Reduction of intraocular (within the eye) pressure; • Reduction of muscle spasms; and • Relief from chronic pain. Marijuana is frequently beneficial in the treatment of the following conditions: AIDS. Marijuana can reduce the nausea, vomiting, and loss of appetite caused by the ailment itself and by various AIDS medications. Glaucoma. Marijuana can reduce intraocular pressure, alleviating the pain and slowing—and sometimes stopping—damage to the eyes. (Glaucoma is the leading cause of blindness in the United States. It damages vision by increasing eye pressure over time.) Cancer. Marijuana can stimulate the appetite and alleviate nausea and vomiting, which are common side effects of chemotherapy treatment. Multiple Sclerosis. Marijuana can limit the muscle pain and spasticity caused by the disease, as well as relieving tremor and unsteadiness of gait. (Multiple sclerosis is the leading cause of neurological disability among young and middle-aged adults in the United States.) Epilepsy. Marijuana can prevent epileptic seizures in some patients. Chronic Pain. Marijuana can alleviate the chronic, often debilitating pain caused by myriad disorders and injuries. Each of these applications has been deemed legitimate by at least one court, legislature, and/or government agency in the United States. Many patients also report that marijuana is useful for treating arthritis, migraine, menstrual cramps, alcohol and opiate addiction, and depression and other debilitating mood disorders. Marijuana could be helpful for millions of patients in the United States. Nevertheless, other than for the seven people with special permission from the federal government, medical marijuana remains illegal under federal law! People currently suffering from any of the conditions mentioned above, for whom the legal medical options have proven unsafe or ineffective, have two options: 1. Continue to suffer without effective treatment; or 2. Illegally obtain marijuana—and risk suffering consequences directly related to its illegality, such as: • an insufficient supply due to the prohibition-inflated price or scarcity; • impure, contaminated, or chemically adulterated marijuana; • arrests, fines, court costs, property forfeiture, incarceration, probation, and criminal records. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Background Prior to 1937, at least 27 medicines containing marijuana were legally available in the United States. Many were made by well-known pharmaceutical firms that still exist today, such as Squibb (now Bristol-Myers Squibb) and Eli Lilly. The Marijuana Tax Act of 1937 federally prohibited marijuana. Dr. William C. Woodward of the American Medical Association opposed the Act, testifying that prohibition would ultimately prevent the medicinal uses of marijuana. The Controlled Substances Act of 1970 placed all illicit and prescription drugs into five “schedules” (categories). Marijuana was placed in Schedule I, defining it as having a high potential for abuse, no currently accepted medical use in treatment in the United States, and a lack of accepted safety for use under medical supervision. This definition simply does not apply to marijuana. Of course, at the time of the Controlled Substances Act, marijuana had been prohibited for more than three decades. Its medicinal uses forgotten, marijuana was considered a dangerous and addictive narcotic. A substantial increase in the number of recreational users in the 1970s contributed to the rediscovery of marijuana’s medicinal uses: • Many scientists studied the health effects of marijuana and inadvertently discovered marijuana’s medicinal uses in the process. • Many who used marijuana recreationally also suffered from diseases for which marijuana is beneficial. By accident, they discovered its therapeutic value. As the word spread, more and more patients started self-medicating with marijuana. However, marijuana’s Schedule I status bars doctors from prescribing it and severely curtails research. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- The Struggle in Court In 1972, a petition was submitted to the Bureau of Narcotics and Dangerous Drugs—now the Drug Enforcement Administration (DEA)—to reschedule marijuana to make it available by prescription. After 16 years of court battles, the DEA’s chief administrative law judge, Francis L. Young, ruled: “Marijuana, in its natural form, is one of the safest therapeutically active substances known. ... “... [T]he provisions of the [Controlled Substances] Act permit and require the transfer of marijuana from Schedule I to Schedule II. “It would be unreasonable, arbitrary and capricious for DEA to continue to stand between those sufferers and the benefits of this substance. ...” (September 6, 1988) Marijuana’s placement in Schedule II would enable doctors to prescribe it to their patients. But top DEA bureaucrats rejected Judge Young’s ruling and refused to reschedule marijuana. Two appeals later, petitioners experienced their first defeat in the 22-year-old lawsuit. On February 18, 1994, the U.S. Court of Appeals (D.C. Circuit) ruled that the DEA is allowed to reject its judge’s ruling and set its own criteria—enabling the DEA to keep marijuana in Schedule I. However, Congress has the power to reschedule marijuana via legislation, regardless of the DEA’s wishes. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Temporary Compassion In 1975, Robert Randall, who suffered from glaucoma, was arrested for cultivating his own marijuana. He won his case by using the “medical necessity defense,” forcing the government to find a way to provide him with his medicine. As a result, the Investigational New Drug (IND) compassionate access program was established, enabling some patients to receive marijuana from the government. The program was grossly inadequate at helping the potentially millions of people who need medical marijuana. Many patients would never consider the idea that an illegal drug might be their best medicine, and most who were fortunate enough to discover marijuana’s medicinal value did not discover the IND program. Those who did often could not find doctors willing to take on the program’s arduous, bureaucratic requirements. In 1992, in response to a flood of new applications from AIDS patients, the George H.W. Bush administration closed the program to new applicants, and pleas to reopen it were ignored by subsequent administrations. The IND program remains in operation only for the seven surviving, previously-approved patients. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Public and Professional Opinion There is wide support for ending the prohibition of medical marijuana among both the public and the medical community: • Since 1996, a majority of voters in Alaska, California, Colorado, the District of Columbia, Maine, Montana, Nevada, Oregon, and Washington state have voted in favor of ballot initiatives to remove criminal penalties for seriously ill people who grow or possess medical marijuana. Polls have shown that public approval of these laws has increased since they went into effect. • A CNN/Time poll published November 4, 2002 found that 80% of Americans believe that “adults should be allowed to legally use marijuana for medical purposes if their doctor prescribes it. ...” Over the last decade, polls have consistently shown between 60% and 80% support for legal access to medical marijuana. Both a statewide Alabama poll commissioned by the Mobile Register, published in July 2004, and a November 2004 Scripps Howard Texas poll reported 75% support. • Organizations supporting some form of physician-supervised access to medical marijuana include the American Academy of Family Physicians, American Nurses Association, American Public Health Association, the New England Journal of Medicine and many others. • A 1990 scientific survey of oncologists (cancer specialists) found that 54% of those with an opinion favored the controlled medical availability of marijuana and 44% had already suggested at least once that a patient obtain marijuana illegally. [R. Doblin & M. Kleiman, “Marijuana as Antiemetic Medicine,” Journal of Clinical Oncology 9 (1991): 1314-1319.] ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Changing State Laws The federal government has no legal authority to prevent state governments from changing their laws to remove state-level criminal penalties for medical marijuana use. Hawaii enacted a medical marijuana law via its state legislature in 2000 and Vermont enacted a similar law in 2004. State legislatures have the authority and moral responsibility to change state law to: • exempt seriously ill patients from state-level prosecution for medical marijuana possession and cultivation; and • exempt doctors who recommend medical marijuana from prosecution or the denial of any right or privilege. Even within the confines of federal law, states can enact reforms that have the practical effect of removing the fear of patients being arrested and prosecuted under state law—as well as the symbolic effect of pushing the federal government to allow doctors to prescribe marijuana. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- U.S. Congress: The Final Battleground State governments that want to allow marijuana to be sold in pharmacies have been stymied by the federal government’s overriding prohibition of marijuana. Patients' efforts to bring change through the federal courts have made little progress, as the courts tend to defer to the DEA, which works aggressively to keep marijuana illegal. However, a Supreme Court case being considered during the 2004-2005 session could limit federal attacks on patients in states with medical marijuana laws. Efforts to obtain FDA approval of marijuana are similarly stalled. Though some small studies of marijuana are now underway, the National Institute on Drug Abuse—the only legal source of marijuana for clinical research in the U.S.—has consistently made it difficult (and often nearly impossible) for researchers to obtain marijuana for their studies. At present, it is effectively impossible to do the sort of large-scale, extremely costly trials required for FDA approval. In the meantime, patients continue to suffer. Congress has the power and the responsibility to change federal law so that seriously ill people nationwide can use medical marijuana without fear of arrest and imprisonment.

2 Dead _ Fuck Me. .. Let The Music Save You As The Rhythm Moves You [22 Jul 2005|12:56pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | the Agony Scene - Scapegoat ] Continued .. ♥With Passion - "Train Wreck Orchestra" ♥Zeke ♥Anal Cunt ♥GG Allin ♥Aborterated - "Circus Bizzaro" ♥Agoraphobic Nosebleed ♥Arsis ♥As The Sun Sets ♥Ampere ♥Anodyne ♥Antagony ♥Aurora Borealis ♥Bodies In The Gears Of The Aparatus ♥Circle Takes The Square - "Crowquill" or "Patchwork Neurology" ♥Commit Suicide - "You're Mind Dies" ♥Crestfallen - "Rogue Rodeo" ♥Crotchduster - "Take Me To Starfish Land" or "Mammal Sauce" ♥Crowpath ♥Dead For A Minute - "Etre" ♥Das Krill - "Apocolypso Now" ♥Dead Sepraphim - "..But Dude You're Missing The Point" ♥Enkephalin ♥the Great Redneck Hope - "Nevermind The Amputees, Let's Have Sex" ♥Fear Is The Path To The Dark Side - "Ungeil" or "Pathos Galore" ♥Force Fed Glass - "Untold Stories Of Brick Walls" ♥Funeral Diner ♥Ghengis Tron - "Arms" ♥the Locust - "Pure Hatred" ♥Gigantic Brain - "the human military confidence lead to the slaughter" ♥Hit Self Destruct - "Aim For The Jugular" ♥Index For Potential Suicide ♥Ion Dissonance ♥Joshua Fit For Battle ♥Raein ♥Kalibas ♥Kaospilot - "the Process Is Set" or "Rethink the Guidelines" ♥La Quiete ♥Leng Tche - "Popularity" ♥Letters In Binary ♥Lick Golden Sky - "--------" ♥Mara Akate ♥Mass Movement Of The Moth ♥Morgue - "(Pig) In Human Form" ♥Morse Code Heartbeat ♥Oktober Skyline ♥Page 99 - "Life In A Box" ♥Phoenix Bodies - "Lawn Of Decadance" ♥Racebannon - "Ookie" ♥Rats Into Robots ♥Shikari ♥Siberia - "Cyanide Filled False Tooth" ♥Sincerely You're Whore ♥Superstatic Revolution ♥Takaru - "Chronophobia" or "C.owardly F.eeding S.ilence" ♥Systral - "Fire Walk With Me" ♥the Minus Tide - "Fist Stick Knife Gun" or "I Smell Blood" ♥Usurp Synapse ♥the Now - "Was That Me? No, It Was The Other Kid With 20 Arms" ♥the Now Denial ♥the South ♥This Ship Will Sink ♥Turn Around Norman ♥Zombie Apocolypse - "Bastard Shit Bastard" ♥Unsane Crisis - "Great Town" ♥Jeromes Dream - "Rock Song" .. to be continued

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